RBADDK (Christmas Time is Here)

Happiness and cheer. Fun for all that children call their favorite time of year. Right? Wrong. I used to love Christmas. My extended family on both sides had super neat traditions, I looked forward to seeing my cousins and such and seeing what Grandma Copier would get me cause it was always super... unique (and probably from a garage sale) and, well, I love me some Christmas Candy. BUT now Christmas makes me sad. I sit around wishing it was what it once was. But everyone grew up and is boring. My brother and sister have other families to visit and spend time with, so I get to spend all day with the Parentals. Don't get me wrong, that's not the worst thing in the world, but i miss the old Christmas.

Okay onto the RBBADDK part...

-I am excited to give people the presents I got them. I wish I was rich then I could give people lots of things... (and let's be honest, I could buy myself what I want)

-Dear Julie, I love you. I do. But no one would read my blog if I didn't express my negative opinions. I am sorry, but I don't have that cute little wife and child to write about like the rest of the blogs you read, thus the awesome negative opinions. And they are awesome.

-I swear everywhere I am trying to go is where Udot is working on a road. They are really good at starting projects aren't they?

-I started watching Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog and I dig. Neil Patrick Harris is pretty brilliant. Those groupies for Captain Hammer made me chuckle. "We'd do the weird stuff"



-Dear Nate (yeah that's me), stop picking girls who don't treat you right. I know you see potential in them, but potential can only get you so far. You are good at reading people's non-verbals. Trust yourself.

-I just got cast in Phantom at Hale. No, not Phantom of the Opera by Andrew Lloyd Webber, but Phantom by Maury Yeston. Same book, but different adaptations. I will be playing Phillipe, the love interest (Ironic, I know). That's the Raul Character in this version. Yay. Come see me. It opens the end of February.



-Ugly Christmas Sweater Parties are neat, see:



-Please go watch this. HIL-Larious. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MBHOL1PcPR8

-I started a blog originally as an emotional release, as a way for me to figure out what the hell was going through my head, but now I am nervous to post that stuff on here. That is dumb. I think I am going to have find some other sort of journal. Lame

RBADDK (Politics Suck)

Wanna know my take on the election? America likes change and things were pretty bad the last few years. This Presidential race was decided over a year ago: it was going to be a Democrat. I just thank the Lord it's not Hillary. Oh yeah, and Politics suck.



-Here's a news flash for you, being liberal does not equal being open minded. Just because you are pro choice and support gay rights doesn't mean you are open minded. You may think it does, but it does not. Not accepting others because they have a different opinion than you is actually just the opposite. You preach human rights and letting people make decisions for themselves, yet you get all butt hurt if they don't believe what you believe. The worse part is you don't even want to listen to an explanation on why they feel the way they do. You are just so sure that they are wrong. (Please note that I am not trying to claim that anyone who is liberal is this way- It's just a mindset that I have seen recently)

-On that note, there are two sides to everything people. PLEASE look into that before you bash the other side. (this goes for both you liberals and conservatives)

-Please don't ever see the Haunting of Molly Hartley. It is a really, really bad movie. If you tell me you enjoyed it, I will stab you in the Jaw. Bad. Just Bad.

-I freaking love TiVo. Except when it doesn't record when it's supposed to. That I don't like.

-Updating your status on Facebook to say "Richard is sick of being sick." Or "Melanie is tired of being tired" or "Jamie is sick and tired of being sick and tired" is not nearly as cleaver as you think it is.

-Speaking of Facebook stati, I am pretty sure it's already time to stop talking about Prop 8 via facebook status. We all know you and your ward are happy about it passing or that you think mormons are bigots. You've said it in a different way every day for the last week.

-Singing Christmas songs in Late October/Early November brings back a lot memories. It also makes me want to kick myself in the junk. I don't know how that would work exactly- but in the middle of singing Happy Holidays for the 9th time in a row I think it would be less painful.

-I've said it once and I'll say it again: I hate Verizon. Remember that time I was in the middle of a conversation and the network went down? I thought it was just my house so I drove a mile away hoping to get service and all I got was that stupid Searching for Service logo. I wouldn't have been as upset had I not been in the middle of a conversation with someone who is ridiculously hard to get a hold of. Real cool Verzion.

And why do you have to have such an attitude? You were once rated the best service so you jack up your price, lock your bluetooth, shut down the option for Mxyertones to work and restrict me from sending text messages over 160 characters to anyone who doesn't have your awesome service? Awesome.

-Doing new things is neat. I highly recommend it. Unless you are considering listening to the Jonas Brothers- Trust me, it's not worth it. I cannot handle their breathy, whiney voices. Some of their songs do not suck, but they do.

-Cope out

Halloween is neat.

I haven't had the chance or desire to dress up for the last few halloweens since I was this every weekend in October:


But this year I decided I wanted to actually go and do something. I went up to Ogden for a Party with a bunch of Weber Staters. I still didn't want to spend much time on my Costume though, so I recycled an old idea and made it a touch better.

This was me in 2000 as a 17 year old (thanks Jill)



And this is me in 2008




Yes, that is my actual Cub Scout shirt. Yes, I was a lot skinnier in High School.

I added the nice kerchief and slider this year. I did have on some Khaki Shorts and Hiking Socks as well. (Just for all you poeple paying attention, I did actually make it to Bear, just never got around to sewing that one on. But that is when my scouting career stopped. No Weblos. No Arrow of Light. No Tenderfoot. Obviously no Eagle as well.... )

Halloween wasn't too bad this year. The party was pretty crazy and I was only one of a few sober people around, but I still had a good time. Maybe next year I'll actually be able to celebrate the whole day...

My Letter to Life.

Dear Life,

How come sometimes you pass by so quickly yet you constantly seem so stagnant? How come you seem so ordinary from day to day yet the memories of the past seem so magical? How come the direction I want you to go is situational? How come I can be so content with where I am yet long to be somewhere else?

I feel left behind from time to time. I see friends in different stages of life. I want that- yet I don't quite yet.

But you do kinda mostly rock when I think about it. Thanks for that.

Sweet, have a nice day-

Nate

Love in LA - Ernie Halter (Cover)

Here is another video i recorded a while ago.  The ending is reals shaky, but that's ok - I am too impatient to re-record it.

If you don't listen to Ernie Halter, please do. He kicks a lot of ass- in a good way.

RBADDK (Shout out edition)

Yay for life. No need for any stupid transition, Let's get right into it:

-I have recently learned that I am a patient person. Many of you may disagree with that statement, but when necessary, I am very patient. Either that or I don't mind being walked all over. I'd like to think it's the first one though.

-I have also learned that I can be kind of needy. It's weird... If I am into someone, I actually like to spend time with them. I know it's an interesting concept. But I guess I don't have much to complain about, I knew what I was getting myself into.

-Please stop letting people hack your facebook profile. I know that they are tricky, but they are using the same tricks they always have. They set up a link to a fake facebook page and ask for your user name and password. After they get it, they like to send me messages about someone having a crush on me - all I have to do is just click here to see who it is. Guess what. I ain't clickin.

-I hate dumb fans. I don't care what team you cheer for as long as your not dumb. Please stop opening your mouth. Especially if you are cheering for a team that I am routing for. All you are doing with your asinine comments is making yourself look dumb and making me mad. Stop it. Please?

-With all of that said, There may not be much better in this life than being an avid fan of a top ten football team. And as much as I hate the U, if both teams were undefeated going into their game - that may make for the biggest holy war since...the Crusades. Both would probably be in the top ten and the Cougs would probably be in the top 5 and a BCS bowl game would be on the line. Wow. Just Wow. But if that happened and BYU lost, I would cry. No, I am not being Dramatic. I would seriously cry.

-103 unanswered points? Are you kidding me? I don't care if it was Wyoming and a down UCLA. That's just impressive.

-P.S. Any Cougar fan needs to check out this blog deepshadesofblue.com. It's written by my trainer on my mission and former BYU safety Quinn Gooch. It's pretty insiteful.

-I wish I had a sleep button. You know right there on my neck some where. I just push it and pow! I am snoozing away. I despise you people who can just lay down and go right to sleep. I don't always have a problem sleeping, but sometimes my mind just goes crazy. Anyone have any secrets?

-One of the reasons I have trouble sleeping sometimes is that I stay up way to late watching various TV series. My current addiction is Bones. It's kind of a dark show because it's kind of a murder mystery/crime scene show, but it's light hearted at the same time. They do a great job with being entertaining, suspenseful, they always keep you guessing and they get you to care about the characters. If you want to watch the first season it's free on hulu.com.

-While I am doing shout outs, I have freaking talented friends. If any of you are in Utah and getting married any time soon I have a friend who is an amazing wedding videographer and another who is a ridiculous photographer. Check them out if you don't believe me.
Brandon Orton (videographer)
Captured by Mikki (Photographer)

Sweet. I guess that's enough for today.

-Cope Out

Free Fallin

It's been a while since I have posted a video.  I just learned this version of this song this evening, so don't judge.  This is John Mayer's version (for the most part) of Tom Petty's classic song.  

RBADDK (Slightly Serious edition)

The time has once again come for Nate to rant about things he does and doesn't like (mostly doesn't).

-Why ESPN, why? I have counted on you for many years to be my friend and you've done such a good job. SportsCenter replays all night long, Around the Horn and PTI every week day and all in HD. You have crazycool (one word) commercials, a plethora of stations and cheap seats. So why did you have to go behind my back and do this to me? I don't want to dislike you. But you make it really hard when you continually tell me that BYU didn't deserve to win the game against Washington.

-If you don't like sports just skip this one... Continuing with the last point: Ok, for those of you who did not see the game here is a summary: BYU was up by 7 with under 10 seconds to go. Washington's QB (Locker) scores a touchdown with 2 seconds left and throws the ball up in the air. The ref throws a flag for excessive celebration. Washington is moved back 15 yards for the PAT and BYU blocks the kick. Game over.

Here is my opinion on the play. Locker did not excessively celebrate, he went right to his teammates, did not taunt, just celebrated with them. But he did throw the ball high in the air. According to the rule book if the ball is thrown high in the air after a touchdown it warrants a flag. The ball was thrown 20-30 feet in the air. (it was in the air for a total of 2.36-2.5 seconds. If you throw that into the math equation (distance=velocity X Time) and assume the ball is falling at 9.8 (which is the constant of an object which is falling straight down) you can assume the ball went around 23 feet in the air from where he threw it- And he is over 6 feet so add that onto the total height, that's almost 30 feet in the air.) Lets say for good measure it was 25 feet in the air. Is that "high in the air" as the rule book suggests? Yes it is.

If you don't like the rule, that's fine. Complain about the rule. But don't complain about the call. The Ref did what he was supposed to. Could he have swallowed his whistle? Sure. But he did have more than enough evidence to make the call. I don't like BYU winning like that, but they outplayed the other team and made one more play than they did.

The whole fact of the matter is that BYU blocked the PAT. A 35 yard field goal is more than makable. Maybe if you had even gotten the kick off, you could complain a little bit more. But you did not. It was blocked. Where's the O-Line?

Refs don't win games for teams. I know that's not a popular opinion in Utah, but it's true. The players on the field win and lose games.



-Ok moving on. New Facebook still sucks. And now I am stuck with it. Whatever happened to "if it ain't broke, don't fix it?"

-I think I am forever doomed to be in complicated relationships. (Don't get all excited cause I used the word "relationship," it's just as I stated above, complicated)

-I auditioned for Universal Studios Japan a little while ago and I have now decided that I really want to go to Japan for a while. I won't know til November (maybe December) if I got the gig, but that would be crazycool (one word) to go out there for a while.

-Frightmares! rehearsals just started up again, so if you want to see me singing my life away as Frankenstein you sure can every weekend in October.



-Yes that's my face on the Billboard for Lagoon just south of the park- and yes I am signing autographs.

-Please don't lie to my face. Especially if I have trusted you in the past. It really bothers me and I will complain about it to anyone that will listen to me. They wont get all the details, but they sure will know I don't like liars.

-I still love Saint George.

-It's still weird not living with my roommates in Logan. And not being in school. And not avoiding to study for tests.

Well it's late. I am tired and I want to wake up sometime before 2 PM tomorrow, so I am done.

-Cope Out

RBADDK (It's August!)

It's been a while. I know. But it's not for a lack of random stuff on my mind... So here it is.

-It's August. It was a tough July (especially the last week) but it's now August and that fills me with joy.

-I am not excited about finding a new day job... but I need one

-Why is High School Musical so popular? I get that it's a fun show. But it's also a shitty show. I sure am glad I don't have kids right now cause I don't think I could live with that music blaring 24/7. And the second movie? Even Shittier than the first.

-Dear Disney: Please stop producing Albums for you kid actors. They are for the most part very untalented singers. I know you are making a lot of money from it- but for the sake of all of our sanity please stop. There are already enough untalented musicians making way too much money.

-I hate Verizon. You are supposed to have the best coverage and I can't even get reception in my BASEMENT? I have to run around the house to get reception to make a call. I hate you Verizon. Oh and yeah, don't worry about sending someone out to check like I have asked you multiple times to do, it's cool. I like getting Text Messages hours after they were sent. It provides a whole new element to text messaging.

-New Facebook is poopie. Don't do it.

-Football season starts in less than a month and I couldn't be more excited. Here's to the Quest for Perfection.

-I forget how freaking rad the Olympics are. I stay up way too late watching the most random things, but I love it. Did you see the Men's 4x100 Freestyle race? That is why I love sports. Watching someone achieve their life dreams before my eyes is really inspiring. Oh and there is no way those chinese gymnasts are turning 16 this year.

-You want to hear all about my dating life? Ok. I can sum up the last 4 years to you like this- I fall for girls who aren't into me, but not for the ones who are. "But Nate," you might say, "it's all mental. You like the challenge, the game." No I do not. Yes, the challenge is fun at first, but that's not why I fall for girls. I can't control who my heart desires. I don't want to control who my heart desires. But I wouldn't mind if someone I fall for fell for me too. But until then I will go on writing kick ass songs about my pathetic love life.

That's all for today.

-Cope out

Another Metaphor to Describe Nate's Boring Life

In our "Book of Life" there are highs and lows, long and short chapters, plot twists, drama, climaxes, and hopefully a good romance.  Some books are longer, some more glamorous and some are probably more interesting than others.  You can dress your book how you would like, title it how you will, even write the dedication yourself.  Every book written is worth reading.

The current chapter of my book however, is probably one worth skipping over.  It's one of those chapters that's just building up to a later chapter.  And though every chapter contains some sort of character development,  the details of getting there currently seem bland.  There is limited drama, no romance, limited action, just a lot of honesty and driving (seriously though, I feel like I am always in my car, at lagoon, eating or asleep). 

While others around me have moved on to the juicy chapters with all the detail, I am stuck on my 2 Nephi (Sorry for the BoM reference.  But man those first few chapters of 2 Nephi are boring).

I don't know what the next chapter will bring (which is exciting) but I am sure ready to flip the page.

My shows are open

Well peeps- Both of my shows at Lagoon are now officially open. Here is a quick run down of the days and time that I do them:

Country Swing Jublilee ( I just play the guitar and look pretty )

Tuesday - Friday

2:00, 3:00 and 4:00 pm

Just Strummin' away

Thank God I'm a Country Boy

Broadway Rhythym ( The Show that Matters ) 

Monday - Saturday

7:00 and 8:30 pm

Me being the Self-Centered one in a song....  I keep getting those songs.  Weird

This is my naked self after leaping in the air.  This whole song is like one big acid trip

Make sure you come on a day when it's not raining or the show might be cancelled.  Come say Hi afterwards as well.  Come plan a day to hang out at Lagoon because it's what fun is.  I would plan a whole day because admission is about $40.  I think Costco has discount passes?  I don't know.  Someone does for sure though.

Hope to see you all sometime this summer.

-Cope out

I Hate This Tag Game

I wasn't going to do this, but since I haven't updated my blog in forever, it's going to happen.

3 Joys:

-Music: I love singing, making, playing, and listening to music.  It has such a power.  Sometimes that's the only outlet I feel I have, it's the only thing that truly understands me.  (how ultra cheesy is that?).  I love sitting in my car listening to a good, emotionally driven tune (prolly a John Mayer one) and just feeling.  Or finding how I really feel by writing a song.

-Athletics:  Cliche.  I know.  But I love sports.  They bring such enjoyment in my life to play and to follow.  I listen to Sports Talk Radio all the time.  I love me some Co-ed softball,  (Why are Co-gendered sports called Co-ed?  Anyone?) Ok, I love to play anything.  

-People:  I love being around people-  Understanding them.  Yeah, sometimes I seem bitter towards the world, I get that.  But people fascinate me.  I love analyzing why people act the way they do.  I love reading peoples Non-Verbals.  Good times.

3 Fears

-Not finding love.  I have this fairy tale idea of what love is and have felt that way about people but it needs to be mutual.

-Having a Career that I despise.  I want to have money, but I want to be happy.  Let's hope I can find something that pays well and I love...

-Never becoming what I know I can be.  I (and yes I am going to toot my own horn) have all the potential in the world.  But I don't do anything with it.  I am pretty good at a lot of things, but not really good at anything.  I need to develop my talents not just show off what god gave me naturally.

3 Goals: 

-Go get Vocal Training 

-Record an Album (or 2 or 3 or... however many)

-Be Happier.  It's all about perspective.

3 current obsessions/collections

-John Mayer:  My Man-crush is pretty consistently playing on my iPod.

-Sleeping In/Staying up late: I need to get over that one soon

-Being Real:  I am always obsessing over making sure I am always honest and that people see me as a real person.  Nothing fake here.  What you see is what you get.


3 random/suprising facts about ME:

-Sometimes I absolutely hate that people care what I think.  I want people to listen to my opinion but don't let my opinion sway who you are.  I am NOT that important.  I love stating my opinion but also don't mind if anyone disagrees with me.  Please do.

-I care about people and want them to be happy. I am so cynical sometimes I think people think I am just a bitter angry person and want others to be unhappy because I am..  Truth is I just say what you all are thinking.  I'm not scurred.  I truly do want people to be happy.

-I love steamed broccoli.  I hate eating healthy, but I love broccoli. 

I am not tagging anybody because I don't wanna.

RBADDK (The Refreshments)

Everybody knows the world is full of stupid people.

Because of my opportunity to tour this wonderful country the last couple months, these simple lyrics (to a pretty kick ass song) have started to ring true in my ears. I seriously never knew there were this many unintelligent people in the world. Don't believe me? Go to YouTube and pick any random video and read the people's comments.

Ok let us pick my brain-

-I constantly spell the word "okay" incorrectly. I don't really care all that much though. It just makes more sense to spell a word with just the two letters you are saying. You don't have a friend AJay. If you do, you should help the poor kid out because he/she probably doesn't have very many friends.

-There are way too many very attractive girls marrying ugly dudes. I know, I know, it's not all about looks. But Ladies, some of us have the whole package... (note: I am not bitter, I am just simply noticing a common trend).

-What? You didn't like that last comment? I'm just saying...

-I love me some Utah Jazz

-I would really appreciate some consistent weather. 70's one day and snowing the next? WTF Utah? Let's be honest, I am too lazy to check the weather report every morning to see if I should wear shorts or a coat.

-Why is there a traffic jam on I-15 everyday at 3 PM on the way to Farmington? It's 3 PM! Shouldn't you people be at work?

-I hate that my bathroom is currently upstairs. I don't want to go upstairs to use the bathroom. If my backyard was fenced in I would think about peeing out there. Seriously though, that's how bad I hate walking up the stairs. (what? I'm not fat.. yet)

Well Peeps, that's all you get from this blog. No grammar lesson. Got a problem with that? Deal with it. :)

-Cope Out

Fidelity (Cover)

This is a great song from Regina Spektor called Fidelity. I haven't uploaded this anywhere else and don't plan to (unless I drastically improve it).

I recorded this a few months ago when I was still in Logan and it is no where near perfect, but I haven't put up a video for a while so I though I would throw it on.

RBADDK (I heart St. George)

Random Thoughts of the Week:

-I miss St George... a lot. I would move down there if I felt like I could have a social life without being the creepy 25 year old.. with a beard. I had a great time the last few days down there, but it just reaffirmed my concerns that I am too old to be single and live in STG. I really need to stop dating girls who are under 20 and living in STG would not help that cause.

-I really like a lot of people from my past. I had some good times with some great people.

-I need to be with someone who makes me laugh. This was also reaffirmed this last week.

-What's worse: Having the Saturday After noon session of conference on the television and not listening or Going golfing during it? I choose it's a wash. But then again everyone else who is "watching"/talking through conference doesn't see how good of a person you are if you go golfing...

-The drive to STG is a lot shorter if you are doing so while watching "The Office." "But Nate," you may ask, "didn't you drive to StG alone? How would you watch the Office while driving?" To which I reply "Don't worry about it. Just let it happen."

-I like StG Nate better than Logan Nate.

-The In-and-Out Burger in St. George is almost done. The sign is even up. To this I have a one word repsonse "overrated"

Grammar Lesson: Sometimes it's just not the same with out a curse word. A well placed Shit, Damn, or Hell can add a lot to an otherwise boring phrase. The key is to use it sparingly. (something I have yet to accomplish)

Random Blabberings of the ADD Kid (March Edition)

March is coming to an end and I haven't thrown down a good blog for while. I am not sure if what follows will qualify as a "good blog" or not. You'll just have to read it and figure it out for yourself.

Nate's Recent Thoughts:

-I really hate the fact that I am 25 but sometimes my forehead thinks I am 15. Don't you have some teenager's life to torture Mister Under-the-Skin Zit?

-You should never have to precursor the introduction of your new Fiance (or almost Fiance) with "He's not the best looking guy, but he's so sweet." This is wrong on soo many levels. You should probably date someone you are attracted to. That's kind of an important thing. Also, if you are attracted to them, who cares what anyone else thinks?

-The worse person you can sit by on a plane is the seat hog. You know, the one who traps you against the window for 2 hours? Most of the time the dude doesn't care if our shoulders touch, but I do. You know how there is a divider/arm rest between us? Me too. There is an imaginary line that goes up from that arm rest you are not allowed to, at any time, cross it. Please do not lean my way- in fact, those in the middle seat surrender any right to lean. Sorry. I don't make the rules.

-Did you know that Black people have a different version of Happy Birthday? I didn't either. Thank you Murray family for introducing that to me. (I have no idea if this is widely accepted in the black community or not).

-I think I recently sold my soul to Lagoon.

-If anyone knows any producers from MTV, please send them my way. A reality show based off of my Roommates at USU would be uber successful. As the Laguna Beach peeps say, there is constant "drama, drama, drama." (Seriously though, people would watch)

-I hate that the word uber is popular.

-I hate even more that I use it.



For this edition's Grammar Lesson I am going to actually give you permission to do something that is not grammatically correct. The Double Negative. A lot of the time you just sound stupid if you use it.

"I'm not doin' that for nobody," is not acceptable. That just doesn't even make sense.

But sometimes the double negative is the best way to describe something. For Example:

"I don't not like him." Not everything in this world is Black and White. It's not do you like him or don't you like him. Sometimes you don't dislike somebody but you don't really like them.

If you disagree with me, get over it. :)

Bubbly (cover)

This one is a great one from Colbie Caillat.

Didn't Even Notice

So, this is an older song and Video, but I just decided I am going to try and get a new video up every week. Some of the songs will be originals written by yours truly, others will be Cover songs. I wrote this one a while ago and this is a performance at Poetry and a Beverage (basically an open mic night) at USU.



I came when you called
I did what you asked
Gave you everything you wanted
I offered my help
I offered my heart
phrased words so they complimented

Sometimes love don't feel like it should
Sometimes love..stops your every move
and..I took a chance on you-
but you didn't even notice

Didn't even notice

I'm sick of all the games
sick of all the lies
all the times I comprimised for
I let down my guard
let you slash inside
where I hide dreams behind locked doors

Sometimes love don't feel like it should
sometimes love stops your every move
and I took a chance on you-
but you didn't even notice

Didn't even notice

Just walk away- that's fine
I will move on- in time
but when you look back you'll see
you gave up any chance with me

You didn't even notice

I award you no points and may god have mercy on your soul

Remember how Adam Sandler goes off on "The Puppy Who Lost His Way" in Billy Madison? And the Principal says "Everyone in this room is now dumber for having listened to your response" ? With this new job I feel an awful lot like that Principal.

First of all, I went to Philadelphia. This is all I saw:



That's the view from my balcony at the hotel. Neat eh?

But this experience in Philly did prove eventful for me. I had a very eye opening experience. You know what that is? People are dumb. Seriously dumb. There are way too many people in this world with little money who are willing to give that money out.

I work for a company who does a training session on Auction Teacher. Basically this program shows people how to use ebay to make a living. There are companies out there who will sell you a lot of products for dirt cheap and all you have to do is sell their product for them. So basically you list the item for them and handle all the customer service. It is actually a good program. All I do is answer questions, help with paper work and set up for the seminar.

So at this training session/seminar we have a speaker who talks a little about which companies to work with and basically gives you a check list to get started. He also will talk about a few other things and then we sell them a couple packages that will help out their business.

People are dumb. First of all, some of the questions people have about this and ebay are ridiculous. I honestly feel like I lose intelligence after talking to some of these people. I didn't know there were this many dumb people in the world.

Now, it's really okay if you don't know anything about a computer and the internet, but you probably shouldn't start a company where you need that knowledge if you don't have it.

You also shouldn't be giving me your welfare check. Maybe some of them will actually use this and make money, but I guarantee the majority of people don't do it.

I have come to the conclusion that it is very easy to make a lot of money. All you need is a hotel ballroom full of stupid people.

Chillin out, Maxin, Relaxin All Cool

With the new job I will be traveling a lot. Ok, that's basically all I do is travel. I will probably be in 3 or 4 different states every week. That is neat. Looks like I better get used to flying.

This week it's Philidelphia. I am only doing one day for the first couple weeks. I would ask if there is anything cool to see in Philly, but I really wont have much time to do anything on this trip. I fly across the country and have to head straight to the hotel. And fly back early Friday morning. Maybe I can at least grab a philly sandwhich sometime along the way...

Maybe I'll get some pictures... maybe not. We'll see.

Waiting For Wednesday

(Originally posted on January 31, 2007)




First of all.. Did you know there is a band and a song by Lisa Loeb called Waiting For Wednesday? I didn't either til yesterday. That kinda bugs, I really thought I was completely original with that one.

Well after posting such a happy song last time, I'll post a break-up song this time. It fits well for my life for multiple reasons at this time actually.


Five Months of pain with occasional bliss
left me abused and alone.
I don't know where I signed up for this
but I'm packing up to go home.

Waiting
Waiting
Waiting for Wednesday

Seeing her smile and seeing her laugh
tears me apart every day.
Convincing my heart what I know in my mind
to heal that's the only way

Waiting
Waiting
Waiting for Wednesday

When Wednesday comes I pray to the Lord,
it brings to me peace of mind
When Wednesday goes still praying my Lord
You'll take this thorn from my side

Waiting
Waiting
Waiting for Wednesday

Now I am waiting for you
I'm still waiting for you
Just waiting for Wednesday

Inspiration for the Underachieving

Who needs some motivation? I was just watching Coach Carter and was reminded of this great quote. I'll also put another one of my favorites under it.

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually who are we not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

- Marianne Williamson


This one is on the Air Jordan shoe commercial. But I love it

It's not about the shoes.
It's about knowing where you're going,
Not forgetting where you started.
It's about having the courage to fail,
Not breaking when you are broken.
Taking everything you've been given and making something better.
It's about work before glory.
And what's inside of you.
It's doing what they say you can't.
It's not about the shoes, It's what you do in them.
It's about being who you were born to be.
Become Legendary.

There you go. There is your pick me up for the day

Thanks Hay. Now I feel obligated.

A. The rules are posted at the beginning.
B. Each person answers the questions about themselves
C. At the end of the post, the person then tags people and posts their names; then goes to there blog and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged.

10 years ago:
In February of 1998 I was in the 9th grade at Riverview Junior High School. I was probably 5'9" or 5'10" and had size 14 feet and large ears. I was hanging out with Scott Davis and Nicole Burnett, and probably was just about to become friends with Matt Sundquist. I was a good kid and I think I still loved Angie Campasano. I loved her for 2 years. I think I was still in the really loud stage of my life but was just about to realize people didn't like really loud annoying people.

5 Things on my to do list:
(1) Get a job. I should hear back from Auction Teacher by Friday or Tuesday
(2) Fix my Neon. Stupid car hasn't even ran half the time I've had it
(3) Donate my Galant to Cars for Kidneys
(4) Get into the studio and record an album
(5) Get back up to Logan for a couple days

Things I would do if I were suddenly made a billionaire:
Invest a lot of the money. I want to make sure I'll have money for my future. Buy a nice house for myself. I am going to customize it so I have my music room in the basement and I'd fill the music room with new Guitars, a nice keyboard, a drum set and sound equipment. Buy a few new cars. And I'd buy everyone in my immediate family a house as well. Oh yeah, and I would travel for a while.

Jobs I have had:
It started out at Papa Murphey's, then A&W and Subway, a couple construction jobs, Tony Roma's, Convergy's (worst place ever), Little Professor Book Store, a camp for troubled teens, Dixie State College of Utah Recruiter, Best Buy, Lagoon and a TA for Public Speaking at USU.


3 of my bad habits:

1) When I perform my eyebrows go crazy. I don't know why, but I just can't control them

2) I check cougarboard, facebook and now my blog multiple times a day

3) If my mustache is getting long I constantly play with it with my tongue and dry out my lips

Things people don't know about me:

-I used to cry a lot when I was little. I got made fun of so much that I put a block on that emotion. I very rarely cry anymore.
-I've never really tried to master any specific skill. I feel like I can do a lot of things well, but nothing great.
-I have never been in a fight in my life
-Up until a couple years ago I wanted to be a professional athlete over a musician/singer
-I'm not as confident as I appear.

I'll tag RJ. You're it.

Don't it always seem to go that you don't what you've got till it's gone?

For months I sat at school just waiting for my new life to start. Waiting to graduate school and move home. I was done and ready for a change.

Change is overrated.

I miss my old life. I don't necessarily miss having to go to classes and pretending to study. But I do miss a lot of simple things that I had no idea I would. Here is a list of things from Logan that I miss.

-Everyone sitting downstairs on our laptops "watching" TV
-Throwing the Football and discussing everything sporty with Kenny
-Justin always having some sort advice for any situation and him always taking your side no matter what
-Marty being awkward. He always has some sort of random saying or gesture he's trying remember to incorporate in his everyday life.
-Matt's constant girl issues. Because he always had issues, we could always understand each other.
-RJ's always got your back. That's just how it is.
-10 o'clock's the new 12 o'clock
-Sitting in the Ambassador room
-Po-Bev.
-Silent Elevator Rides
-"tag me"

Ok that's enough sentimental crap. The whole point of this post goes back to Joni Mitchell's wise lyric. "Don't it always seem to go that you don't know what you got till it's gone?"

I guess not Joni. I guess not.

Even Skinny Kids Get Fat

I have been living at home with the parentals for the last 2 months. It's not a bad hookup. I basically have my own apartment in the basement plus a 67 inch DLP HD TV. (Side note: Have any of you ever watched Discovery Channel in HD? I never knew I liked the Discovery Channel till I saw it in HD. Awesome)

Ok, I promise there is a point to all of that. Because I have been a bum the last two months and I don't yet have a job, I have a limited supply of money. Because I have a limited amount of money I can't go eat out for every meal. Seriously people, ask my roommates at school. I ate out 75% plus of the time. I was pretty lucky financially at school with scholarships and grants, so I wasted all my money on food.

Now I eat whatever is in the fridge. Luckily, my wonderful mother bought me a bountiful supply of hot pockets, corn dogs and burritos. I grew up on frozen food. That's really all I know.

Back to the point. The last time I weighed myself at USU on Justin's scale (or Matt's?) I weighed 208 lbs. Not too bad considering I am pretty freaking tall. But this morning the scale informed me that I am down to 197 lbs. I know weight fluctuates, but it's been between 205 and 210 the last couple years. I have lost over 10 lbs by just eating... a little (and I mean little) healthier.

I kept telling Hayley I was fat. She never agreed. Now I have proof

Summer Fun....and Beyond?

Lagoon needed an answer. Tuacahn said "there's a chance you could get called," but told me to take the sure shot. So I did. And now once again for 6 nights a week from the end of May til mid September, I will be having the glorious opportunity of experiencing "what fun is." And you all have to come experience it with me.

I went to auditions for Holland-America Cruise Lines on Friday. It went really, really well. I will find out here in a couple weeks if I am on their hiring list, but the director was amazingly complimentary of me and I am optimistic about it. If anything happens, it wont be till, at the earliest, September (after Lagoon). I really can't imagine anything better than getting paid really well to perform about 3 nights a week (max), not pay for any food (I spend so much money on food), or housing and.. oh yeah... being out in the Caribbean, basking in the sun. So, lets just hope I get an offer.

A quick shout out to Dan Ransom

My header picture is from a guy named Dan Ransom. He is a local photographer and he is ridiculously good. Check out his website www.danransom.com . His photoblog is off the heezy- for sheezy.


Especially if you love BYU football as much as I do.





Man he's good

Decisions, Decisions

I promised myself I was going to retire from performing at Lagoon. I had no desire to audition. I was just going to work this summer and actually make some money. Just live the normal non-performing life. You know, the one that actually makes money..

But then my sister, Mandy, had to go and tell me she wanted to audition. I decided that I would love to do a show with her so I told her if she auditioned I would as well. I still wasn't convinced that's what I wanted to do. Then Lexi had to call me and convince me that it is what I wanted to do.

So I auditioned. There was actually quite a lot of talent there. My sister did great. I figured she and I would get cast in the same show and that would be the end of that.

But I auditioned for Tuacahn anyway. It was a few days later and I figured "why the heck not?" They are doing Les Miserables and a couple other good shows, so I didn't think that I even had a chance because of the popularity of the show, but I did get a call back. Overall the audition went pretty well.

Lagoon called and offered Mandy and I positions (in different shows) and Mandy declined. So where does that leave me? I auditioned for Lagoon again to be in a show with my sister and now that's not happening. Lagoon needs an answer ASAP. I want to know if I even have a chance at Tuacahn.

Do I want to do this all summer?



Or wait out for the possibility of this?




F it. I don't want to decide. How about I just go back to school in Logan. I didn't have to make decisions there.

I'm All At Sea

I was talking to my good friend Dallin the other day and he asked me if I was over a girl that I had recently dated. I told him that I was not yet there, but I wanted to be.

Now those of you who know me really well know that I often use metaphors to explain my current feelings. I guess I think that I think that I am deep.. Anyway, this time actually turned out to be one of my better ones. I am going to refer back to this metaphor multiple times throughout this blog, so pay attention.

I explained to him that it was like I was on a sailboat. All of my bags were packed and the boat was loaded. The sail was up and the boat was slowly drifting away from the shore. I was just waiting for the wind to pick up and take me a sea.

Well my friends, the wind picked up.

For the first time since June of last year, I can honestly say that I have lost the desire to be with her. (Sorry Hay, I wish I could say differently). I really wish that it would have come sooner. I wish I didn't have to experience the sleepless nights- The nights where my body physically hurt because of emotional pain. I wish that I wouldn't have been completely broken for my next relationship where I often seemed cold hearted and disengaged. I wish many things would have been different.

You know what pushed me over the edge? The realization that after everything we've been through she never fully trusted me. If the lack of trust was warranted I wouldn't have felt like I did, but I was really hurt. I am an honest person. A bit too honest at times. If being trustworthy, honest, and loyal doesn't earn trust, I sure as heck don't know what will.. Hell, It would probably earn me my eagle scout... (maybe I should start on my Webelos, I never even got that one)

But that did it. That sent my ship sailing away. And I must say the air is a lot crisper out here.

I Can't Let You Go

Your eye shadow always matches what you wear
You always seem to care what others think about you
You try and mold me to what you think I should be
Sometimes you drive me crazy. You drive me up the wall

But then I hold you close
And then I see you smile,
And when that lip starts to curl…

All my doubts and my fears simply go away
50-50 couldn’t change what I’m about to say
“I get lost in your eyes as they search my soul
And when I find myself I know - I can’t let you go”

Wounded hearts preventing what we could be
Delaying a recovery - closing open minds
Your pensive brows warn me I should worry
Our future could be blurry. Our doubts will hold us down

But then I hold you close
And then I see you smile,
And when that lip starts to curl…

All my doubts and my fears simply go away
50-50 couldn’t change what I’m about to say
“I get lost in your eyes as they search my soul
And when I find myself I know - I can’t let you go”

You always question our compatibility
You’ve always been so needy. I've never been enough
Our two worlds started pretty far away
But they collided on that Sunday, and I’m sure glad they did.

Cause when I hold you close,
And when I see you smile,
And when that lip starts to curl…

All my doubts and my fears simply go away
50-50 couldn’t change what I’m about to say
“I get lost in your eyes as they search my soul
And when I find myself I know - I can’t let you go”